Hi guys,

First time post here. I've struggled with mental health problems for about 5 years now. Depression and anxiety are a big big problem for me. About 4 or 5 times, I've had real intense episode of anxiety/agitation. It usually starts on a night and makes my depression a lot lot worse and can last for weeks until it gradually eases up. Here are the symptoms when i start to go through them:

-sudden onset of intense anxiety
- will wake up at 3am or if really bad, can't sleep at all
- brain feels weird. Feels numb
- struggle to get my breath
- really sensitive to things. Lot of things make me want to cry
- headaches
- appetite gone
-feel really needy and have to be round people i trust
-overwhelmed by everything
- some suicidal thoughts
- really bad anxiousness and restlessness, feel like pacing up and down and shaking or tapping.

I realise this could be anxiety attacks alongside the depression but i read somewhere that bipolar can exist without mania. The SSRI's I've been on as well have never really worked for me.