Every now and then I have thoughts of just ending it all. Nothing specific, just thoughts of how easy it would be to leave this hell of a place we call Earth. I usually only have these thoughts at night when I'm trying to sleep but every time I think about it I immediately rethink it and change the subject in my mind. I know I'm not suicidal because of my views on suicide. I think it's stupid, a cowards way of dealing with their problems, yet I'm not sure what problems I would have to give me these thoughts in the first place. I would never actually kill myself because life has too much to offer and I'm only 19. Plus it's not fair to my friends and family and just makes me look selfish. I'm not willing to tell anyone in my family because they make a big deal out of everything and I'm really trying to avoid the drama. I'm just wondering if anyone else has experienced these thoughts and have the same views as I do along with being around the same age as me.