AB75,

Lord, do I know what you mean. I just drop my water bottles to the side of the bed, only eat food that needs no preparation (I had cheese and crackers for dinner) and just throw stuff as near to the trash that I can get, lay in bed sweating severely and I stink and my linens stink, etc. BUT...

...I HAVE HELP. I have a caregiver who comes in to clean up, make sure that I get a shower, changes my linen, etc.

I don't know if you've taken advantage of government resources that might be available but if you get a good case manager they may be able to get you some home health assistance. Because of my physical disabilities I've had a caregiver for over three years, before my depression and other things got so bad. I couldn't survive without her.

Good luck,