For me it is a cross between now, when no treatment helps and I have so many scary negative feelings and this has gone on so long, to after I have tried the last few options I've got. I try not to think about what happens if these options don't work but it's pretty hard to ignore that little concern.

I know I feel like giving up now and I can't. For me the one thing that keeps me from giving up is that I have a niece who loves me dearly and I don't want her to think I gave up or didn't try. I want her to see me as fighting this and that I will not hurt her with my disorder. I can't bear the thought that I could do that and if I give up and stop trying I will.