I read your post and I'm sorry for the tough love but ostracizing yourself is NOT the way to respond. This is the depression talking and the pain. It will make your situation worse and not better. And while I too like the support I receive from an online community of fellow sufferers, it is not the same as the real world where you see and talk and participate in the lives of others. The internet can be a great place to hide and not deal with real life because it is safe. You don't have to deal with your voice cracking and tears falling or the physical presence of others. All the messy stuff of real life. This is not to disrespect anyone on this forum. I view being here as a great supportive group therapy but the point is to get better and to get out in the real world.

The friend who called you CARES about you and wants to know how you are. Call your friend back and tell her what is going on. Sharing what is going on in one's life -- not only good news -- is what friendship is all about. Your friend will understand. You are not doing your friends a favour by nobly dumping them. That is the depression talking. They will feel hurt that you are not speaking to them and wonder if you are punishing them when all they want to do is help. Talk to your friend. Tell her that you are feeling down. Please talk to your T. about this as well.

I have been exactly where you are now. I have had to have friends call me just to get me out of the house for five minutes because I was housebound for days because of depression and wanting to withdraw. People care about you. Plugging into your life, even though it is really hard for you to imagine right now, is the way to overcome this bad time.