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Originally Posted by DeeAnnaD1913
I agree with most people that have responded to this post. I have abused alcohol in the past when I was on pills or did not having pills at that moment. Since I got clean, I drank one glass of wine and I was just fine. I didn't run and go the liquor store to buy a fifth of whiskey (my old fav, lol) I actually got a slight headache from the glass of Chardonnay and didn't enjoy it at all. Going into my getting clean, I thought I would never be able to take a sip of any alcohol but I think that as long as I can be strong enough to do it in moderation ( like the normies do! Lol) and only do it once in awhile, I think I will be okay. I definitely don't feel that way towards any of the pharms and hard stuff that I I abused. I know that no matter what, I cannot misuse any substance with the intentions of getting "slap ****ed up" (as me and my recovering addict father say) haha. I just can't let anything make me not in control of my mind, body, and emotions. If I ever felt that a beer or a glass of wine was leading me in a bad spot, I wouldn't do it, ever. And a lot of people do feel that bc addicts are "All or Nothing" personalities , we shouldn't do it at all .
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Thanks. I like that you pointed out intention, that is a big one for me. For instance, I have had a beer with friends just being social and having a good time and didn't even want a second. But if I choose to drink to avoid life, I know that I'm in trouble. The same goes with all sorts of things. When I drink coffee to enjoy a good cup, I stop before I get all jittery and insane. If I do it for other reasons...
I get irritated with the assumption that there are good drugs and bad drugs. As for the vaping debate, interesting but not all that relevant.
But I also operate under the assumption that people's recovery works best when they decide what works best for them and I know many disagree... I know that my recovery was **** when I didn't listen to my own voice and instead let others dictate to me what to do. We figure out on our own when our choices are bad ones... But getting back a voice we had lost? That's a sort of recovery in itself, one I'm working hard at at the moment.
And I know the thing about being told what to do is a greater trigger for me than for most as I've loved most of my life doing what people said and losing myself in the process.