Been reading about high expressed emotion in schizophrenia families and the stress vulnerability model. My cpn said she thinks my problems are related to stress and I thought she was minimising things but turns out stress is a major factor in relapse of symptoms in sz. I didn't know that. Been reading a lot about sz and how it relates to me. I can see it all. My story makes sense. But am I faking. Is it all a lie. Maybe I want to be ill. But no I don't. I'm not lying. Why do I feel like a fake when it fits. This is the people who said I was lyings fault. They have damaged how I think. My parents are classic examples of high EE. My prodromal phase was misdiagnosed and now I think I'm a liar and a fake. But I don't have what they said I did it doesn't fit. Need to learn to trust what they say now. Try and think they aren't playing games. Messing with me. No they are trying to help. I wrote down all my problems and its a 'classic case'. Even my hostile disbelieving parents believe I have sz. So I need to accept it.