Hi-- I am new here. I have suffered from depressive episodes for many years, but was only diagnosed with bipolar ii last week. I was hospitalized for suicidal ideation and after observing my mood changes during the hospital stay, the pdoc started me on lithium. I am very afraid of the med, but more afraid of the dark depression I slip in and out of. Now I don't feel depressed but I also don't feel anything else. Just blah.