Dear T

Today's session was alright. But when we were talking about my homework and the thoughts I wrote down, you choose to ignore certain thoughts. ''...I don't want a future'' and ''I don't want to be here''. Did you realise that I meant
You mentioned or talked about most thoughts I wrote down, but the ones that implied SI you ignored. I think you knew what I mean, but you didn't want to talk about that. I get the feeling that subject makes you uncomfortable. So I don't mention it either. But the thoughts are still there.

And about that ''life isn't pointless, certain thoughts of you are pointless''. You're sort of right. Those negative thoughts are useless. But I'm right too. Life is pointless. Whatever you do, it all ends with dead. So everything you do is pointless, useless.

I'm useless.