T, I did something stupid. I googled you again. I've never told you I googled you. I don't know why I did again. Probably a bit bored and I was curious if I could find something more of you. And I did. I found a few photo's from your pregnancy photoshoot you did with your boyfriend 2-2,5 years ago. There're on the website of the company where you did that shoot. You wrote a review in the site. And there're 5 photo's of pregnant you on that site. Also with your boyfriend. You look so happy. You look so happy at your fat belly. You and your boyfriend look so happy at eachother. So loving. So beautiful. Even your fat pregnant belly is beautiful. No weird prenancy things. Just beautiful.
Btw, did you ever had a belly button piercing?

Pain goes trough my body. I've no idea how it feels. How it feels to have someone who loves you so much. How it feels to love someone so much. How it feels to have someone look at you like your boyfriend looks at you.

I shouldn't google you. Or pdoc. Though I can't find much about him, only where he plays sports. But it's so hard to not type your or pdoc's name in google once in a while. You two know some much about me. I know nothing about you. I want to know more about you. But everything I find out about you, only gives me more envy.

When those pics were taken, you were 1 year older than I am now. We couldn't be more different.