I ran head first over the cliff when the unsuitable guy came to fetch me back home from university. I didn't go around asking for advice and thinking clearly about the sensible parameters. I had so much fire and passion when I was young I felt I could take on the universe or an idiot fiancé. You are just fine the way you are. What ever you decide or do, you sound like a wonderful person. Do you have some family, a grandma or a Mom that lets you know you deserve a wonderful life? I would go and get a hug from them. If not, we will send you lots of hugs. I would give a broken heart at least three years of talking about it. Councillors can be good to talk to too. I have learnt my upcoming divorce follows a lot of predictable patterns of emotion and that I have always been missing enough love and support in my life.