Awww .... how embarrassing for you! But you can buy and wear little protection padding that no one will know you're wearing... I have a bad back and sometimes wear that on what I think are long trips or in case of long meeting!

I'm not sure why they would fire you over one such incident...so maybe if that's it, you can go back with the"correction"?

It would be good for you to have someone to talk with...someone who will help you think more rationally. Depression makes us think irrationally... depression tells lies that we tend to believe.

You have a lot to live for...but right now you aren't seeing them... and you're feeling like there isn't. Feelings aren't true. Ask for help.