Hello Cloudylia: Welcome to PC! PC is a great place to gain support as well as to obtain information regarding mental health concerns. There are many caring members here. Having struggled with depression & anxiety, among other conditions, for many years, I can relate to what you wrote. I've never been on Lithium. But, from reading her books, I know that Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison credited it with saving her life. If you haven't read any of her books, I recommend them. There are, of course, other med's available for the treatment of Bipolar depression. Sometimes it can take a while to find the right one. I send warm thoughts your way.