Hello Kjollee: Gender issues can be very complex & confusing. I'm an older person now. And yet I still struggle with issues that have plagued me since I was a young child. I always imagined that as I grew older, these issues would gradually dissipate of their own accord. Unexpectedly, however, a few years ago, they exploded. It's only now that I can say I feel like they have more-or-less faded out again.

When I was growing up, & also when I was a young adult, no one talked about gender identity issues. The terms transgender & transsexual had yet to be invented, & there was no internet. So, if one didn't fit into the gender binary, one just kept it to themselves. I'm amazed at how rapidly things are changing now. I don't really understand all of the different terminology that is in use nowadays to identify all of the different resting places that exist along the gender continuum. So I don't spend much time here in the Transgender Forum. But I read your post & wanted to simply say that figuring out one's gender identity can be a long-term project, if one does not fall neatly into the typical gender binary. So be gentle with yourself & take your time. My best wishes to you.