this year, i had a very physical reaction. it started with a trigger that made me almost physically sick..my stomach hurt, i couldn't breathe, and then i had this image come into my head...but around it was like white or black...it was not like any memory i had ever had where it was the full picture...it was almost like a mix of a dream and daydream...i still have no idea if it was real or not...

i can remember that particular stomach ache when i was a child, but i have no memory of when or why. that made it even more scary and was like a whole bunch of triggers at once. it made me dissociate very bad..and then my head was trying to piece it all together...and i don't know if what was in my head was just my head trying to make sense of the physical reaction or what was going on.