It just kind of clicked with me, but the "fakeness" of them being loving towards me was such an elaborate effort/them convincing themselves that it nearly appeared as if it was real! They spent all this time helping me study, even offering to take classes with me in college to help me out, letting me live with them when I suffered majorly with depression and other stuff, offering to come to live with me in college when I got real bad, and a whole assortment of things. However, there was always a small part of me that had my suspicions. Then, when I addressed those suspicions, it turned out they were more then just suspicions, they were obvious facts! She didn't come right out and say that she did in fact never want me, but saying, "what difference does it make" basically is admitting it without exactly admitting it.