Think of it this way....a child who is abused has a LOT more to overcome and deal with than an adult who was raped. (Sorry, but true...) Children have normal development thrown off track. Sometimes it NEVER gets back on track. I was molested during the time where I was forming my sense of safety in the world.....well, guess what? I never feel safe, and I trust no one....even though I've been working on healing for 5+ years now. Simply put, you can't go back and re-learn all of these developmental milestones that you missed out on. Don't get me wrong, adult rape is bad, but as an adult one is fully developed and has more tools under their belt to heal. Children who are molested get thrown off track, and its a bit maddening b/c you can't really ask someone how to get back on track.....you've gotta figure it out for yourself. Oh, and BTW, my childhood trauma was just like yours. And yes, I'm on the more severe end of PTSD.