When I have a breakthrough and insight and T gets all smiley and happy it almost makes me feel worse like it overshadows the fact that I'm still not better, I'm still falling apart. Like she expects me to be 'better' because I thought something through or did a different response to something in my outside life. I guess therein lies the answer "I think she expects". She doesn't. She is happy for me in that moment with that moment but still understands the pain but wants me to see that I can continue to grow and be better in some small, often tiny areas, and still be hurting and confused and in pain. I think I might bring this up with her. Thank you for the thread.