I know that i feel crummy today and I even know why, but I'm not sure I want to talk about it.
I am extremely tired today, because i just didn't sleep well because of my guilty conscience. You see, I made it almost 8 weeks without smoking. I was on day 55 when I broke down and lit up. I feel like crap about it. My family almost caught me smoking last night, which would have made things even worse.
I failed again! I was doing so well but now I have let myself and everyone else down.
I also was asked if I keep my weight on because that way I feel safe and don't fear being raped or sexually assaulted again. That really shook me. because it is true. oh well, back to work enough whining for now. Thanks for listening. E