I do not want to go on SSID. But I've lost 3 jobs this year because of my medical condition (syncope), and have been so depressed because of that I've attempted suicide twice in 5 months and was hospitalized again in between those for idealization. My therapist and I talked about going on it before a couple years ago and she was strongly against it then (that I would take on disabled as an identity, not having the structure of work in my life contributes to my depression, etc.), but now she's telling me I'm a shoe in and to really consider it, since I can't keep a job as everywhere I go tells me I'm a liability and I can't stay once I faint.

I just need to know more about like the day in the life with someone living on disability income. I live in MI if that helps. My cousin is on disability and has to live with his parents, which is an extreme fear of mine, though I think he has to because of his seizures not because of his income. Is it possible to live on your own with the amount you get? My home life is not healthy and the goal for years has been to get out, but I've never been able to get up the savings/consistent income. I can't drive cause of the fainting, so no worries about car payments and such. What do you do with your days? The thought of just vegging in front of the tv/computer does not appeal to me.