Not sure that it's of any consolation, but I think most parents think this at some point, whether or not they ever say it out loud. Personally I wonder why mine had me at all, since their marriage was already on the rocks by the time they did, and got no better after that. As I was planned, I suppose I was meant to be what tied them back together.. if so I was certainly not up to the job.
Ultimately I think we're all of us only here out of some strange degree of chance and serendipity.  
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“We use our minds not to discover facts but to hide them. One of things the screen hides most effectively is the body, our own body, by which I mean, the ins and outs of it, its interiors. Like a veil thrown over the skin to secure its modesty, the screen partially removes from the mind the inner states of the body, those that constitute the flow of life as it wanders in the journey of each day.”
— Antonio R. Damasio, “The Feeling of What Happens: Body and Emotion in the Making of Consciousness” (p.28)
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