It's such a hard thing keeping in all your feelings and thoughts, but it's just how I've always been. I have no idea why. I started lying to my parents about my feelings and things I did and stuff like then when I was like 5 years old. I can't think of any real reason why. but I'm still that way as of today and it's so hard to keep up with. I have all these feelings and thoughts stuck inside. I do really want to have someone to talk to about my problems and everything because I know how bad not talking about anything is making me feel. the thing is, I can't even think bout some things without crying. I don't want to try and talk to someone about these things and then end up crying. that's embarrassing and I'm not tryna **** up my makeup lol. seriously though, I don't know what to do.
there's this guy who I know would let me talk to him any time and I feel very comfortable with him and his family, but I don't wanna cry.
my small school recently hired a counselor and I wanna talk to him, but I definitely don't wanna cry at school.
I don't know what to do
what do y'all think? anyone else feel this way? what do I do..

also this is my first post, and it's on the tapatalk app, so I don't even know if I'm posting correctly lol.

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