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I exist on the periphery of my biological family. My few friends are my family.
My mom and I were close until I was about 10 years old. We drifted apart when she tried to get me to socialize with girls who had no desire to be around me. I was also severely bullied which she did nothing about. I internalized it, believed that I deserved it, because she failed to protect me. Now I'm just the daughter she resents, because I'm not socially gifted, married, have children, and possess typical interests. I'm an alien in my biological family.
My mother never really liked me. She interacts with my sisters a lot differently. Whenever I am with them I always feel left out. It isn't much better when we are alone. She doesn't have much to say.
I wish the world was more accepting of us. Most don't know how to deal with autistic individuals and blame us for it. Grrrrr.
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Dx: Didgee Disorder
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