that reminds me. my sister was giving me a hard time because im on disability. she said i could make 4x as much working than being on it. she doesnt understand. neither does my mom. only my dad understands. it makes me really sad. she works in a psych hospital too...now my view of hospital workers are forever skewed because of her. she was talking about the different people that come in there and feed off the system. theres truth to that but then she said "only a few of those people have actual disorders. the rest are feeding off the system". im sure she has a view of me thats skewed too. that makes me so sad to wonder that.

ive been wanting to cut again. so badly.