I cant tell you what is right for you and I understand not wanting to bust out crying in front of someone. But maybe you could schedule an appointment with the counselor and just keep it casual and get to know him/her. Then, if you feel comfortable, you could always schedule an appointment either before lunch or at the end of the day and take a touch up makeup bag just in case???? Its really hard to keep everything inside and I don't think that will get easier. Just a thought. And its totally just my opinion, but I think a counselor is a better option than a guy friend. Sharing pent up, highly emotional feelings in "friend" situations, particularly with the opposite sex, can get really complicated and awkward even with the best of people. Good luck to you.