I'm an emotional mess again. In retrospect, I think I contacted you too soon. I thought I was ready, but I guess I wasn't. I'm feeling so much, all kinds of things. Anger, sadness, abandonment, gratitude, love, joy. Part of me likes all these emotions. How's that for a change? Makes me feel human. Mature. Normal.

I'm thinking about you way to much. I couldn't sleep and in my mind I was writing you another email, about how I'm feeling now. But I shouldn't do that. I shouldn't email you. I need to get through this again. And I know I can do it. I just wish I didn't have to, it's so hard.

I love you.