honestly, it's not embarrassing. it actually shows that you have good character (i have the same laughing problem too lol)
i think when you reach out to someone, hopefully someone who is understanding and can help (like the counselor) i think you could be ok after that.
it sounds like you've had all this grief and hurt bottled up for so long that you just really need to let it out, i think talking to the school counsellor could really help.
just letting all that bottled up grief and pain out i think will really help in the long run and the counsellor will help you to deal with the problems.
also, having something you can take your emotion out on is extremely helpful.
like music, art or martial arts etc
helps you channel it into something constructive and is a great outlet.
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