I wake up feeling so depressed until the end of the day. I am in college, so in class I fake it with my peers and no one ever know. But when the doors close and I am alone, I feel like a failure, I cant stop thinking about my traumatic past,I cant let go and always cry. My mother has mental illness but she does not think I suffer from depression because she does not want me to have the same traumatic experience she had being mistreated, taking meds and was in a mental hospital.
But, I just need help, I am a junior, I need guidance or something to push through, help me make friends, finish my major and be active in my college.
I am 20 years old, is there any way I can use my insurance and see a doctor on my own. My mom is paying for my insurance and I am afraid she would find out.
Any suggestions?
Thank You