i haven't posted much here on this site, but i've read a lot and you guys seem so great. anyway, i suffer from emetophobia ( fear of vomiting) and the accompanying anxiety/panic etc.... it is awful. i do'nt like my pdoc and i odn't know what to do because i don't know how to find one that i do like and my insurance won't cover any mental health and i haven't been able to work really all year because this has been the worst year of my life for so many reasons. started in january when i acually vomited for the first time in my life. that was the worst day i have ever lived through. i wish i could go back and erase it.
just about all of my friends save for one have moved away in the last year and while i live with my boyfriend, i have no other emotional support locally and it is making me insane. i just don't know what to do. i don't trust the doctor because all he wants to do is make me take drugs that i am so scared to take because of the phobia... and other reasons.
ugh. what do i do? no one can fix me. i feel so hopeless