Thank you Tunia, for thinking good about me.

Things can come about that cause one's very old painful recordings to resurface and the only thing one can think to do is to protect oneself-- as no one else ever did.

I'm hurting so and don't want to feel I haven't any control over it-- like when I was little. I must take control for my own mental well being..... as hard as it may be.

You made "little mandyfins" smile at the thought of going to the library AND having a book buddy.
--thank you--

Exclusions and "secret groups" are so painful to me....... just can't be here anymore...... I've tried for over a year to get beyond it and keep going-- like Snoopy does in the Charlie Brown shows-- you know when the music gets real sad and then he tries with all his might to keep his chin up-- that's what I've been doing-- but-- it's just too hard... think I better go with Snoopy and crawl outside among the tall grass and weeds.......

Tunia--

mandy