I have ptsd from childhood abuse/neglect. I am having work issues, not with my office but the state that oversees us. They are acting the way the people who abused me did. I never know what I do will make them mad and I'll get in deep trouble. I never know if I am doing the right thing. It is impossible to fly under the radar so I don't get hurt. I try so hard to be good and do a good job and be safe and there is no safety to be had, it's arbitrary. And then I have been not thinking well, can't add basic math, can't do simple tasks, can't remember anything. So I am doing my job worse then usual. I hate it. I know it's all snagging on the old stuff but I can't seem to really break through it and deal with each one independently. I also think I am depressed. meds need changing? Stressed maybe, I don't know, see the doc on Tues.