Hey, most of you don't know me, but I need somewhere to post this.

Since I finished middleschool, at an age of 18-19, ( comparable to highschool in america) I went to a university to study mechanical engineering. However I fell flat on my face, I went to rent an appartment with a highschool friend who went to do the same study. Slowly we didn't get to like eachother anymore. We basically never went to university and smoked weed all day, being on each other lips 24/7. Also not knowing any other person in that city or university. made me depressed and unmotivated to finish my study. It took me 9 months into the 3rd year to tell my parents I didn't want to continue.

I then went and get a parttime job. Now I have found a job where I work 30-40 hours a week and tried to find a place to rent and move out of my parents home. this came to my realization that having minimum wage really sucks, REALLY.

I found another study that I might be interested in, civil engineering. It won't start till next year september (the school years just started, so I'm a bit late)Yet I feel anxious about even applying to the studies.

What if it turns out I don't like it and waste another 5k+ of my parents money? What if I do like it, but I get another meltdown, like during my previous attempt at a university study? I'll be a month off the age of 25 when I will start the study and around 30 when finished ( with masters, 28 w/o), am I too old? Will that make me super awkward around the 18-20 y/os who just got started, besides already being awkward with my AvPD?