They're back. I'm using my DBT skills to just observe them and not obsess over them or what they might mean but they linger.

I drive and consider serving into a semi but idk why.

I consider finding a gun but idk why.

They suck. I'm not really suicidal just have self harm and dangerous thoughts and urges.

I hope it's not an episode coming. Mostly worsening this small depression I'm in!