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Originally Posted by Alone & confused
I don't have your level of education, but I can relate to pretty much everything else. It sounds as though you've covered all the bases on the mental health aspect of things, but have you looked into possible physical problems that may be contributing to this?
I myself have been considering having things like my thyroid checked, and a cancer screening ( at the advice of an ER Dr. And due to my family history). Years ago when the med thing wasn't working, I had a neurologist who did an MRI to make sure I didn't have any brain abnormalities causing my depression. I only ask this because I understand the struggle and desperation to break free from this. I hope you find relief from this! Best wishes!
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I had bloodwork done was a few years ago for all the normal culprits. Everything was fine at that time. Since then my insurance has changed twice. I gave the first new gp a try but was extremely disappointed and frustrated with the process. Since the last insurance change a year or so ago, Ive made two appointments (which are like a month or more out) and have cancelled both by the time they came around...
partly because its overwhelming to think of showering, finding clean clothes, driving, waiting, and then trying to express how impaired my functioning is without being written off as "one of those patients" and get through 30 years of history and treatment in a way that will explain why I want certain meds and not others and why I dont want to take three months to titrate onto everything...
And partly because I cant handle having doctors or meds fail again.
Wow, I realize that I sound like a jerk or worse. But Ive been under care and on meds for decades. It gets old having to start over. I just dont have the energy to invest and I obviously have a bad attitude at this point. I guess Id rather just blame myself for not going than have to try to "manage" another doctor just to be frustrated again being told to jump through all his/her hoops for months and months for with no benefit to me.
Ugh that topic is really frustrating and depressing. Sorry.