My T and I made a deal that for this week I will have a set schedule. This includes eating/drinking times, sleeping times, and restarting my meds. So I'm going to use this thread as a log:

10/16

11 am - woke up
1 pm - apple fritter
9 pm - pizza/wing

@ 11 pm I will take my meds and go to bed. I'm to be awake and ready for the day by 10 am.

We're trying to stop a depressive episode. My heads quiet, I feel like I'm not speaking coherently or understanding. I'm numb, this sucks.

Took meds, now I'm nauseous, curled in a ball almost in tears, I so want to purge FML. I feel like I just poisoned myself trying to avoid cutting now. 6 more days.
4 oz. choc. milk
24 oz mtn dew.