Exactly ThunderBow!

I'm going to focus on what you can change. You can increase your knowledge and stimulate your brain. Read, watch the news (real news not garbage news), find a subject you are interested in learning more about.

I feel medication has been detrimental to my intelligence and knowledge, so I do a lot of puzzles to try to stay sharp.

Talent. YOu may simply have not discovered it yet. Talent can be a lot of things - even dressing well with what we can manage. Have you thought of an introductary art class? It's a super way to meet people too :-)

I know what it's like to feel down on myself, but I fight it and do my best to make an effort. I do watch a lot of news. It's important to me to be knowledgable too.