No offense meant and I'm not getting political here, but in your OP you mentioned Glenn Beck proving everyone wrong... Please don't listen to him when you are feeling like this. He yells and provokes fear and that's the last thing you need right now.

Practice self-care. Soothe yourself with uplifting music. Distract your brain with cartoons or stupid sitcoms. And don't be afraid to reach out for help. I'm sure your support system would understand that you don't want to upset your mom while she's on vacation. They can help you deal with this without her for a few days, surely. Trust your instincts if they're telling you that you need help.