Having a moment of despair here... I find it hard to talk about my feelings with people right now and stay by myself a lot. The pain is really bad, so I am glad I have an outlet here. Heartbreak is all I can feel right now.
I go out and try to keep myself active, and I know I have a couple of "real" friends, but right now I feel alone and sad.
I am so desperate inside, and I realized I keep up the strong fassade because people often become so helpless when I am helpless, and I can't take it. Even in my therapy group or with my mother I can't really talk. I tried, but the results were pretty disappointing. So I have to be the strong one. I often got out more crushed than I was before, if that is even possible, when I tried to talk about my feelings and about how hard things really are for me. In my weak moments I have nowhere to go to, so I just stay at home and knit much of the time. It is a sh*#tload right now