Hello Rubylizard -- I am sorry that you have had so many losses. Tough year. It seems as if quite a few of us on the forums are feeling alone right now.

I certainly don't have any solutions. Sometimes, your county health services have low cost or sliding scale treatment. Look in the yellow pages under "counselors" and call a bunch to find out what you offer.

Changing to someone new is hard, bec. they have to take a new history. I stayed with a therapist I loved for years and years, because she was warm and nurturing and lovely to be with and I didn't want to go thru the intake sessions with a new therapist. I moved, and had to change, but the new one is more directive. Kind, and sensitive, but it isn't just a catharsis where I talk, she says, "There, there," and I leave. So if you don't like your current therapist, you owe it to yourself to investigate what else is out there. Esp, if you are paying the whole cost yourself.

Keep coming back Rubylizard. Good luck with this.