Terry, I am so sorry that your life is so painful right now. Please know that lots of people here have experienced similiar things and will listen to you and support you.

We have a depression forum and an anxiety forum that you'll find tons of support in.

I'm so glad that you found PC. Life isn't over for you, some adjustments can be made and you will be better.

The suggestion to go to Al-Anon is excellent. You can find out about meetings by calling the local AA chapters (in newspaper or phone book).....see you around here.......pat