i know myself, i've dated overweight guys and they were usually the ones i liked better than the good looking ones. the same would probably be for men dating women. beauty is interior too. self esteem plays a role too. i'm sure there are alot of other positive attributes you can think of besides your appearance, like a sence of humor, smarts, and other things. don't be so down on yourself, you deserve so much more, but you have to believe you are a good person despite weight. i'm sure beauty is something you can't see in yourself but others can, love is blind too.