Dear T,

Ok. So here I am thinking on something said to me in one of the court offices during that whole ordeal. They tried mediation rooms numerous times between myself and my exhusband, for point of clarity.
Was chatting about how I really shouldn't have married. She said that I probably wouldn't have been talked out of it, if someone tried. I did see some truth in that. At 25, and starting my involvement with my now exhusband, I can agree that wanting what I perceived as settling down with someone that was clearly into commitment to me was appealing. Plus, he was older, I felt that a man in his late 30's was someone who wasn't into slying around on the side. So, I guess there was no talking my 25/26 year old self out of it. I split my age since I was nearing my bday when he and I had met. Does that define me now? Heck no. I'm cautious. I either ask questions or truly listen for what's necessary for me to trust.

That's where I am, in this moment.

Me