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I'm currently living with my parents as my wife is sick of me and to use her words "cannot deal with me". Things not looking good for our marriage when you get kicked out of the family home. I am halving my dosage of lactimal from 400 back to 200mg and had had Olanzapene and regular valium added to my concoction when I was hospitalalized a few weeks ago. Problems at home are adding to my stress levels no end and I am fighting the desire to just give up. The withdrawal coming of the Lamotrigine are not fun at all.
I am tired of waking up in the mornings and wishing I didn't wake up. I currently don't work, can't work in my trade due to my memory issues and social anxiety...
Has anyone had experience with backing down off lamotrigine, and how do you fight when you don't have the strength left. I have a strong faith in God, but even that doesn't offer me a lot of comfort because I don't feel worthy. All the mindfullness and self healing techniques, on mornings like this morning I don't care and couldn't be bothered even trying them, just don't have the mental strength.
Now I know the answers are get active, mindfullness, relaxation, living in the moment, sleep, distraction, and medication to name a few. But I don't care is the problem.
Where do you get the strength to fight. This morning I could just give up,,,
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