I can't help but feel some of my ability to retain or recall things has declined. In the past I've always been quite good at knowing the meanings of words & circumstances in which to use them. However, recently whilst reading I find myself unsure of words which I have come across before & also feel even though I look up stuff I'm unsure of, I don't seem to grasp it in the same way or commit it to memory.

I've done a lot of reading over the past couple of months since I came off APs, but I feel that I am not engaging fully with what I am reading. I doubt I could readily recollect a lot of what I've read.

This disheartens me... I feel I'm not firing on all cylinders despite being medication-free & having comparatively few symptoms now. I guess perhaps my psychosis is still lingering on in subtle ways. Perhaps also there is the fact that successive bouts of psychosis are more likely to leave lasting changes. My CPN told me that perhaps I would never be the same as before my first episode of psychosis and now it seems another episode may have had further impacts.

Who knows, I certainly like to think I could get back to the way I used to be but I guess only time will tell.