Terry - glad you posted and I hope it helped even a wee bit to get this out. I know you said you're not looking for advice, but I just have to say that I am a sober alcoholic and you cannot change, fix, or make an alcoholic do anything. It is extremely painful to what them self destruct. Someone else gave advice about going to Alanon. I have been there as well since I have also lived with alcoholics. They can give you the hope that you so desperately need. It's anonymous and it's free. You can usually find them in your yellow pages.

My thoughts are with you dear man.

Tranquility