i took a bath , i didnt even bathe myself i just laid there and thought a lot and ended up crying. i feel like such a freak for getting this upset about a promotion. shouldnt promotions be good news? i am just so scared of messing up and failing. not being able to handle it. getting too stressed out. T texted me that he has complete faith in me. im gonna do it , and maybe the intense fear is just for the anticipation. maybe once i start training i will feel better and more confident