I used to always make a list of things to get done in a day and get overwhelmed and anxious then extremely irritated.

Now Im where Im so afraid to get to that point that I have anxiety about it in itself. I overthink and try to think ahead and finagle things so I am not putting myself into stressful situations but then I am driving myself crazy.

I am also afraid to do more than 1 or 2 things a day, sometimes I wont do anything because Im afraid Ill be overwhelmed. Its not like when I am depressed and dont want to do anything. I want to do so much and I have to fight with myself because before even when I felt confident that I wasnt going to head into anxiety and irritibility I always did anyway. So now it doesnt matter how good I feel or how confident I am, I have to limit myself, but then end up stressed out amd have anxiety about what I didnt do that I wanted or needed to.

Its a ****ing conundrum. I need to get this anxiety under control. Anyone struggle with this conflict?