I finally had an appointment with T today. I definitely felt different. I didn't feel I connect in the way we always had. I explained the incidents to t in detail. She said she could see why I was really upset and such. I told her I was eventually able to connect with a friend of mine and work through the crisis. She was proud of me for reaching out for help as I don't usually... I HAD reached out to her when I was have thoughts of overdosing on meds but be the vagueness of her emails I didn't feel right explaining that. So today I did tell her about those thoughts but she didn't even comment on it...maybe it is time to stop therapy.