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Originally Posted by DysphoricManicMom
I used to always make a list of things to get done in a day and get overwhelmed and anxious then extremely irritated.
Now Im where Im so afraid to get to that point that I have anxiety about it in itself. I overthink and try to think ahead and finagle things so I am not putting myself into stressful situations but then I am driving myself crazy.
I am also afraid to do more than 1 or 2 things a day, sometimes I wont do anything because Im afraid Ill be overwhelmed. Its not like when I am depressed and dont want to do anything. I want to do so much and I have to fight with myself because before even when I felt confident that I wasnt going to head into anxiety and irritibility I always did anyway. So now it doesnt matter how good I feel or how confident I am, I have to limit myself, but then end up stressed out amd have anxiety about what I didnt do that I wanted or needed to.
Its a ****ing conundrum. I need to get this anxiety under control. Anyone struggle with this conflict?
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I am SO there with you! I had a doosy of an attack just today! Over a marriage proposal of all things! I ended up breaking down and taking my miss a stabilizer ( which ticked me off because it killed the hypo state I was enjoying! ) Lately I have to have someone go with me to go shopping or pretty much anywhere else because for one I just can't make myself go anymore, and two to keep me calm while I'm out. This is kind of a new thing for me. I used to enjoy getting out by myself. Now it's becoming a trigger for me. I also make lists for everything. It's the only hope I have of staying on task. I've had my dx for quite a few years now, but it seems to be getting worse as I get older.