[quote=RxQueen875;4726668]I'm the same way. I don't go out or dress up or put on loads of makeup. Trust me, I've tried. But what interests me is just hanging out at home with my pets and boyfriend. Back when I was a heavy sloppy drinker I could tolerate the public but now I stay to myself. I really don't have friends. I consider ppl acquaintances but that's about it. I've either been screwed over by "friends" or my bipolar has made me shut them out.

As far as self acceptance, I'm jealous of those who've found that bit of peace. My mental illnesses make it hard to like my looks or things I do or say. My self esteem ran off when my eating disorder began 13 yrs ago.

I can totally relate (to being screwed over)- It's very hard for me to open up to people- I have many acquiantances but very few friends . . . i think I also push away potential new friends sometimes as well. ..